December 2011
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Please...
Nervous anticipation mixes with hopeful delight,
cherishing that anxious giddyness causing aortic
gymnastics and a benign percussive arrhythmia.
Clothes slowly exiled to their untidy piles as glazed eyes
gaze unfocused from breast, to thighs, to mouth.
Hazel eyes devour my soul as skin and skin meet for the first time
reacquainting memories of one another from dreams before they ever met.
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Verse I
There is much I say but little I do. Judge me not for words idly said, judge my actions, passions, and joys instead.
The Tyranny of Fear
Never fear change, instead always seek to improve thyself lest thine flaws be passed unto thy children.
Loosing my religion
What if God exists?
What if he doesn’t…
Circle of Life
Existence is a maliciously spiteful planar curve that is equidistant from a fixed point terminating only after infinitely navigating double the distance and realizing the imminent multitude of pies projected forcefully at your face is just the punchline and your myopic yet meaningless story was the joke.
PDA
I had my annual doctor’s appointment last week, and was embarrassed and dismayed when he told me that I had to stop masturbating. Hurt and confused, I asked him why. Surely it’s not dangerous since I disproved my mom’s accusation of early-onset macular degeneration years ago, and my dad’s theory about localized palmar hypertrichosis had also been proven absurdly unscientific. ...
October 2011
1 post
The game of life
A sea of life ebbs and flows
Mob of hundreds united
yet isolated and enigmatic
One with each other in apathetic,
self-absorbed bliss.
Blissfully secure in each clan’s myopia.
Triumphantly confident that the reality is their own.
Comically unaware of the cosmic chaos perpetuating
the mass delusion of disillusion preferring pills blue not red.
Yet alone I stew in my cynical broth of...
September 2011
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Magic Purple Unicorns
Technology is like a parabolic noose
ready to snare those unequipped to choose
Dogmatic theories and unpracticed truths bloom
but academics only trumps experience in the classroom.
Perpetual analysis leads to brain freeze,
Plans need action like flowers need bees
Effort helps but does not alone achieve success
Artistry comes through passion, skill, and tirelessness.
Unicorns and rainbows...
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Jehovah's Witless
Senseless horrors perpetuated in his name
Leaders of men, experts at his killing game.
If God is love, then death is love’s theme
and life is his Rube-Goldberg machine.
Commandments broken, like our soul’s grace
Hope entombed by his flawed servants faith.
Sadist faithless, my soul endures and spurns
Every day a pyre upon which civilization burns.
His flock, hoards of lamb...
A job takes work...
Job satisfaction and fulfillment seems to ebb and flow during employment. It starts with excitement and anxiety as you try to fit their mold and prove your worth. At some point a comfort zone is found and you settle in to a groove.
This is where you have a choice to either go with the flow or try to start leading improvements and change. Choosing the latter can have reward but also exposes...
The Enemy Within
What people see isn’t all to me.
Growth didnt end after puberty.
Ongoing war without and within.
Individuality vs social acceptance,
both paths are wrought with pain.
One dream’s loss is another’s gain.
Life, recursively twisting and turning,
the loving embrace of chaos and entropy.
Living Rube-Goldberg’s machine,
dying to live this sadistic reality’s...
Status Quo
Underestimated and Misunderstood.
Impotent power courses through our veins.
Glorious self loathing, emotional stains.
Distant binary cousins to a proud mother’s brood.
Hope begets no action but an epoch lottery.
A comedy of pain, fates dealt hand.
Braying as sheep to lion’s men.
Draw our poly swords, don our helms of pottery.
March soldiers march, onward into life’s...
Heart
When you live life heart-first dont be surprised when you bleed,
the pain you feel just proves that you are still alive,
dont fear getting hurt, only fear being unable to feel.
there is no life without love, no love without pain,
and no love without heart.
August 2011
1 post
Professional Crastinator
Lets get started -
Clocks & Calendars lie and deceive…
It’s time to work -
TV beckons…
Deadlines near, lets get motivated! -
Easy work is too boring, hard work too hard…
Night before it is due. -
OMFG! Work work work…I’m exhausted, must sleep…
Late & incomplete!
Failure! Anxiety, depression, self-loathing…
I appologize…...
June 2011
2 posts
One
Gazing down.
nothing but clouds and birds.
Mountain climbed
Brass ring in hand.
Joyous relief
a river of exaltation.
Forever achieved.
concrete etched reputation.
The journey nolonger
Work in progress - worked.
Practice perfected.
There can only be one.
Arise!
Gauntlet thrown
Pistol fired
You alone can choose
Rise up or retire
Steepest climbs
Deepest falls
Exchange safety for glory
And stride Olympus halls
Failing to fail fells all fools
Succeeding less success precedes prestige
Rise up today
Shoulders back,
Head up
back erect and tall
Now and forever arise,
rejoice, and rise again.
ARISE!!!!
January 2011
1 post
Mantra of the Lizard Master
I will nolonger sedately allow my Lizard to rule my life,
I will live my life as I think it should be lived,
I will create a plan,
I will believe in my plan,
I will live the plan,
I will ignore the Lizard’s pleas,
I will starve the Lizard of garbage and poisons,
I will become master of the Lizard not its slave,
I will tame and domesticate my Lizard,
I will feed the Lizard what I...
October 2010
2 posts
Facets
I’ve been thinking about a girl
a Russian cashier I met somewhere
with her accented lips
and skin of olive pearl.
Long ago random chance meeting
it left a mark in my lustful heart
I cannot erase the image, the voice
or her shy interest and needing.
The dazzling gray-green eyes with flecks of blue
made me stop and flirt and seek shared meaning
like faceted gems, her glances lured...
Til Undeath Do We Part...
Mornin dawns with love in our heart
joy grows, pulse quickens
true love ways only we are sharin
desire grows when we are apart.
Kissing lips,
dancing eyes
Swaying hips,
caressing sighs.
Before long dusk steals the day
honey turns to venom
sweet nectar into lemon
darkness corrupts, has its say.
Blinded, stumbling into the past
anger steals our future
demon gives birth to sickness...
June 2010
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Strongest Man In The World Dies
I have known great and powerful people in my life, but yesterday the strongest man I have ever known has left our earthly graces and ascended to his rightful place of eternal ecstasy and bliss.
He was a giant among men, who spoke softly, and epitomized the word gentleman. He lived his life heart-first and truly loved those around him with every part of his being. He was a man’s man,...
May 2010
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Undone
Stumbling through each day,
living as though I’m dead,
I go through the motions -
motionless, emotionless
Body begins to atrophy
slowing a bit every day
bones brittle, eyes growing dim
each breath a labor - memory, pain
Tangled thoughts, muddled recollections
past tarnished, future unattained
words dying mid-thought unsaid
last shred of ambition crushed by fear
What I once...
April 2010
2 posts
For the "greater good"...
I love all of the political energy flowing these days and how people are finally shaking free of their decades of political hibernation and engaging on almost every topic of the day.
The “Tea Party” are few in number when considered on a national scale, but their impact shouldn’t be underestimated. Regardless of what you may think their motivation is, fear, racism, altruism,...
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Life & Death: When does life begin?
Recently in the news, a man killed another man because the victim was a doctor who performed abortions, and the killer believes that abortions are murder. Therefore, believing murder is bad (especially for the unborn child) the killer made himself the chosen weapon to enforce the “eye for an eye” philosophy.
For a moment, lets ignore the illogical idiocy of the killer’s...
March 2010
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The ongoing epic battle between "Good Enough" and...
I’m a semi-reformed perfectionist. I used to be “that guy” who always would look at the finished product and say ” we could have done that better”, lament over the many imperfections, and rail against those who made it that way (often myself). Nowadays, I still seek to achieve perfection, but with the knowledge (and hard-won experience) that true perfection in...
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Watch your "Watching vs Doing" Ratio (a cautionary...
I’m 40 years old, and someone who works in front of a PC all day (and often all night too). As such, I struggle with sustaining my weight, physical fitness, and energy levels, etc. Often, to myself, I wonder why I struggle so much, but I’m sure an outside observer could pinpoint the problem right away. I spend more time watching, consuming, and observing than I do creating,...